Now when Jesus heard this…
What did
Jesus hear? That John the Baptist was murdered. Jesus’ cousin, the one who
baptized him, quite probably Jesus’ mentor was dead. Someone close to Jesus was
killed for teaching similar things to what Jesus taught. It probably didn’t
take the knowledge of God for Jesus to predict his own death at this point. We
also know Jesus was not above mourning. Given all this, who would not need to
withdraw to a deserted place by themselves?
But the
place he got to wasn’t deserted. He saw the great crowd, and found himself
moved with compassion for them. We’re at a crucial point in this story now. A
point where Jesus’ dual nature can keep us from seeing all that is happening
here.
Undoubtedly,
the love of God is in operation here. All love comes from God, ultimately. But
before you conclude that it is only because Jesus was God that he could
overcome his grief and love the crowd, be aware of this. There are times when
God’s love for one of Her children will flow through you, love bigger and more
powerful than your personal love. And maybe that’s what the human nature of
Jesus experienced here; unexpected compassion, compassion that altered his
plans.
Another
possibility is that Jesus’ reflections on the future helped him to see a crowd
that soon might not have any leaders left that can see what he sees. How long
does he even have left to be with these people? Of course why Jesus was moved
by compassion is all supposition, what we do know is that Jesus acted on that
compassion.
The original
Greek word translated as compassion literally translates as being moved in the
inward parts. Some translations use the word pity rather than compassion. The
word pity has bad connotations for us today; usually connotations of
superiority and inferiority. Not to suggest that God isn’t superior to us, but
the incarnation tells us God wants to be close to us, to be with us. Compassion
means to “suffer with” there’s a sense of solidarity in the word that pity is
lacking for us today. And compassion isn’t necessarily just an interior
experience. Compassion is also a word used to name a spiritual discipline. When
used in that case it implies moved into action.
And so Jesus
heals the sick in the crowd. He acts on the compassion he finds instead of the solitude
he sought.
Now, I often
put myself into the place of the disciples when I reflect on a Gospel story,
and sometimes give them more of a break than the text implies. When the
disciples say, "This is a deserted place, and the hour is now late; send the
crowds away so that they may go into the villages and buy food for
themselves." I like to think in part they are trying to get Jesus the
solitude he originally sought. I might add the words, “You’ve done enough for
them now, it’s time for you to get the rest you need.”
And on some
level maybe Jesus partially agreed with my hypothetical words because after he
tells them he’s not going to send the crowd away, he says “YOU give them
something to eat."
To which the
disciples respond by telling him about their own lack of resources for this
situation. "We have nothing but…” Their glass is half empty; possibly
their hearts too. Some of them may have known John as well and had their own
processing to do.
And Jesus
tells them to bring him what they do have. And Jesus looks up to heaven and
blesses the resources available, whether his disciples think they are enough or
not.
I want to
call your attention to the looking up to heaven part. Really just to point out
that even Jesus makes embodied gestures when he prays. And that is one way we
can reorient ourselves to the task at hand when we think it’s beyond us.
Because our bodies sometimes know what our conscious mind does not, and can
redirect our minds appropriately.
The crowd in
this story had no clue about the emotional resources that were spent for them,
a crowd that big wouldn’t likely even know how limited the material resources
were when the disciples began feeding them. Yet all were filled.
And the word
all would include Jesus and the disciples. They too were filled by this. Now
before we conclude with a clichéd use of the quote from acts, “It is better to
give than receive,” I want to bring to mind what prompted these acts of
generosity; compassion; God’s Love.
I do not
believe that self-sacrifice is an end in and of itself. What we didn’t read
tonight was the paragraph immediately following this story. Where he does
dismiss the crowds and sends the disciples off and has his alone time. It’s
necessary.
There will
be times when you find yourself depleted and you lift what you have up to God
and there is nothing moving within you. It’s important to honor that.
There will
be other times, however, when despite your lack of resources, you will find
yourself moved; perhaps because it’s important to you, perhaps because you feel
the importance of the situation to God. That is the time to take your resources
to God and ask for the strength to use those resources and act.
Don’t worry
how little you think you’ll accomplish. More may happen than you expect.
Just this
past week a taskforce I’m associated with accomplished something spectacular.
Though many people don’t know about it or fully understand it. Basically, a
subcommittee of lawyers were trying to get the Insurance Board of Illinois to
spell out specifically what the Affordable Care Act meant when it said
Insurance companies couldn’t discriminate against people based on gender
identity. There was some resistance to the specifics we were asking for because
that would be seen as “interpreting law” not enforcing it. Much to my surprise,
most of what we wanted specified ended up in the final document.
And I
announced this victory in a trans* activist group, so that those affected will
know about it. I was met with disappointment that it didn’t go far enough. Honestly
at first I was miffed, but then I realized they had no way of knowing what went
on behind the scenes, of how hard people worked to get as far as we did,
farther than we hoped. And the critics have a point. Yet some people will be “filled”
by this. People who are suffering, who I personally have “suffered with,” will
get some relief.
Our text
tells us the crowd was filled, not that it was grateful. Acting from compassion
isn’t about seeking reward; whether the reward is accomplishment or gratitude
or self-satisfaction. Not that those things are bad, or if you experience them
it cheapens your actions.
Nor is
acting out of compassion about doing the right thing, being good or moral, it’s
about letting love guide your actions. If love is guiding your actions, then
you are up to the task.
Trust God
and trust when God moves your inward parts.
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